Thursday, September 24, 2009

Student Teaching

My life has been sucked into the black hole that I call student teaching. It consumes all around it, time foremost.
Okay, so it's really not that bad. Sure there are days where I break down and bawl like a baby after school, but is that any different from when I lived with my grandma? Not really.
Right now I am in a 5th grade classroom. The teacher and I actually have fairly similar personalities. However, we tend to see some things completely different. Like discipline. I hate negative discipline! I fully believe that negative reinforcement only produces more negative behavior and that positive reinforcement can help students a lot!
I feel that my classroom teacher overreacts with some things. Maybe it's because she's supposed to be sitting on the sidelines watching me mess things up. I don't know. I imagine it's difficult to hand your class over to some stranger and let them try to teach things to your students, especially when your name goes on their test results at the end of the school year.
We haven't had the best time so far, and admittedly I'm afraid that her opinion of me isn't very good. It makes me nervous to know that her ideas of me can affect my getting a future job or not. Truthfully, I hope she can overlook my shortcomings. I am still learning after all.
We'll see how the next three weeks go!