Sunday, September 4, 2011

Forgiveness

One thing I've already begun learning is how to forgive more quickly. Sometimes I feel like my husband and I avoid talking about certain things because we don't want to make the other person feel bad. Last night, I lost my temper briefly. We were playing a stupid computer game and I let his competitiveness get under my skin. You see, when I play games, I play merely to have fun and just to play. i don't care who wins. It isn't about winning for me. My husband is very competitive. He plays to win and enjoys it. His family is very similar and he loves playing games with his siblings.
So last night he said something that really irked me. I lost my cool and let him know he was kinda being a jerk about winning. I don't care if he was winning, but he didn't need to rub it in. Of course he is  a sweet person and had no idea he was being so competitive about our little game. He got up and left the room. And I ended up feeling like a jerk for saying anything about it.
We then spent about a half hour talking about it. We both apologized and felt bad. And we both promised to do better next time. *sigh* I'm a lucky woman to have a man so willing to forgive me for being stupid about things. He says he's lucky to have someone to point out when he's getting to engrossed in things. (I think he was just being nice.) If you can't tell I still feel immensely guilty about the whole thing. I just wish I had kept my mouth shut! I'm learning.
It's easier to watch out for people's feet than to apologize for stepping on toes.

Married Life

So, there isn't really much different in married life. We wake up in the morning, rush around getting ready for school. Go to classes, come home and rush off to work. Then after work we come home, try to get some homework done before going to sleep and start the whole process over again. I guess the only difference is the "we" in the statement. I'm not alone anymore. It's a nice thought. Though, it doesn't always make things easier. Now I find myself worrying about 2 people instead of just one. Are we both getting our homework done? Do we have lunches/dinners ready to go? etc.
Still, it's wonderful to be married. It is one thing I don't have to worry about anymore. I know more challenges and worries are coming up, it's easier than trying to do it alone.