Sunday, September 4, 2011

Forgiveness

One thing I've already begun learning is how to forgive more quickly. Sometimes I feel like my husband and I avoid talking about certain things because we don't want to make the other person feel bad. Last night, I lost my temper briefly. We were playing a stupid computer game and I let his competitiveness get under my skin. You see, when I play games, I play merely to have fun and just to play. i don't care who wins. It isn't about winning for me. My husband is very competitive. He plays to win and enjoys it. His family is very similar and he loves playing games with his siblings.
So last night he said something that really irked me. I lost my cool and let him know he was kinda being a jerk about winning. I don't care if he was winning, but he didn't need to rub it in. Of course he is  a sweet person and had no idea he was being so competitive about our little game. He got up and left the room. And I ended up feeling like a jerk for saying anything about it.
We then spent about a half hour talking about it. We both apologized and felt bad. And we both promised to do better next time. *sigh* I'm a lucky woman to have a man so willing to forgive me for being stupid about things. He says he's lucky to have someone to point out when he's getting to engrossed in things. (I think he was just being nice.) If you can't tell I still feel immensely guilty about the whole thing. I just wish I had kept my mouth shut! I'm learning.
It's easier to watch out for people's feet than to apologize for stepping on toes.

1 comment:

Emily said...

Don't feel bad and you shouldn't have kept your mouth shut. That is one of the hardest parts of marriage is dealing with guilt. Communication is key and if you don't feel like you can talk about the small things, then what happens when something big comes along? The more you talk things out the easier it gets and the less guilt you feel. (I know it is easy to say these things. Best of luck.)